I Dont Know What & How?

If the book is actual, it will find an audience meant to read it.

– Wally Lamb

I don’t know what to write and how to write. I don’t have the knowledge and experience to share anything of significance. Neither do I have a strong vocabulary nor an understanding of grammar. I’m bad at writing, and no one reads my blog (okay, a few).

Still, I write.

Am I mad?

No. The answer to this question is that I have found why. I don’t care how many people read my blog, whether they like it or not. I’ve no interest in knowing my audience. I’ve nothing to do with the thought – what they think about me.

I write to explore the unconscious within me. I write for fun. I write to understand my mind. I am writing to know what exactly I’m thinking right now here at this moment.

It’s a daily ritual for me, like prayer or a bath. I want to cleanse myself.

The old gramophone records are playing in my head; I want to get rid of them. I want to break the beliefs that I acquired on this planet since childhood through the conditioning of my mind. I need to learn to program; writing is the code I’m using to program my mind.

Who am I, and what I’m doing here?

I want the answer for my existence on this planet.

That’s why I write. I’m clear at the level of my thought; I’m not writing to earn money. It’s a gift that I have the unique ability to read and write. I’m enjoying my heritage and am grateful to Mother Intelligence for this gift called writing ~ a perfect art of self-expression.



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  • Stuart Danker

    It’s great that you’ve found your reason to write. Admittedly, there are many modes of writing, from the performative to the personal, so don’t stop exploring what it means to you, and do keep going!

  • Amelia Ashley

    I’m a regular reader of your blog. No advertisement, no bullshit, a couple of sentences showing your profound knowledge. Thanks for taking the time to create this blog.

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