When Life Feels Heavy: Learning to Earn From the Inside Out
If you’re carrying too much and need space to breathe, I hold weekly Inner Clarity Sessions. They’re a quiet place to return to yourself.
By Aniruddha Singh
In the early hours when most of the world sleeps, I step out into the quiet lane outside my home. The sky is still dark, the wind is cool, and the first birds have just begun their soft negotiations with the dawn.
There is something about the Indian morning — a kind of private courage that asks you:
“What are you carrying today?”
For the longest time, my answer was: weight.
Not physical. Not emotional. Something deeper.
The weight of trying.
Trying to grow. Trying to earn. Trying to do the right thing. Trying to help others. Trying to keep faith. Trying to stay patient. Trying to stay hopeful.
And yet… no matter how disciplined my mornings were, no matter how sincere my intentions, the money didn’t come.
I was doing everything:
investing,
donating,
helping,
working,
learning,
creating…
But financially, the ground beneath me felt like shifting sand. The more effort I put in, the more the debt grew. The harder I pushed, the further the horizon seemed.
Have you felt this too? That strange exhaustion where you’re doing everything “right,” but life still feels like a closed door?
It took me years to understand something simple, something obvious, something nobody teaches us:
You cannot earn outwardly when you are leaking inwardly.
We think money responds to effort. But more often, money responds to energy.
Not the abstract spiritual kind. The practical, grounded kind:
Are you stable?
Are you clear?
Is your cup full?
Is your mind steady?
Are your boundaries strong?
Are you acting from safety or survival?
Because survival scatters energy. Safety consolidates it.
For years, I was operating from survival.
I was giving more than I had. Helping more than I could carry. Donating more than I could afford. Working harder, but not deeper. Investing without anchoring myself first.
My life was like a clay pot with a small crack. Water kept pouring in… but it never stayed long enough to quench anything.
You cannot fill a cracked pot by pouring more. You must seal the crack first.
This was the turning point.
Not a book. Not a course. Not a miracle. Just this realization:
“To earn outside, I must first stabilize inside.”
So I changed the order of my life.
Not my dreams. Not my values. Just the order.
First: I protected myself.
I stopped giving from emptiness. I paused donations. I stopped stretching beyond capacity. I reduced my expenses ruthlessly. I sat with my own pain without trying to fix anyone else’s.
Then: I chose one clear path of earning.
Not ten ideas. Not five projects. Just one offering that comes from my nature — helping people return to clarity.
Next: I grounded my days.
Walking. Writing. Chanting. Breathing. Presence. Not as performance, but as quiet alignment.
Finally: I allowed myself to receive.
This was the hardest part. Receiving feels uncomfortable when you’ve spent years only giving.
But life opened —not through force— through steadiness.
If your life feels heavy right now…
if you feel tired of trying… you are not failing. You are leaking.
And leaks can be sealed. With integrity. With structure. With presence. With one steady step inward.
This is the real work. This is where earning begins. This is where your life turns.
Not through hustle. Not through guilt. Through alignment.
A Simple Ritual for This Week
(Do it once a day, preferably after waking up)
Sit for 3 minutes. Place your palm on your chest. Breathe gently. And ask:
“Where is my energy leaking today?”
Don’t rush. Don’t judge. Just notice.
Whatever comes up — seal one leak today. A boundary. A pause. A “no.” A small correction. A tighter container.
Money grows where energy stays.
If you’re carrying too much and need space to breathe, I hold weekly Inner Clarity Sessions. They’re a quiet place to return to yourself.
