I don’t deny your financial problems, but there is no excuse. You’ve to fight once you’re on the battlefield. Pursuing your passion is a War of Art. There is no difference between the soldier fighting on the war land and the artist at her desk. Both have to win this War of Life.
You can leave it and do what others suggest, but if that was true, every soldier could’ve been in their homes because there was a risk on the border.
They know they can die, and so do their families. The soldier fights with integrity and dies with respect. That’s the Warrior’s Code. An artist must have to follow that.
Keep on doing what you love to do, and don’t deny the possibility of failure. Anyway, if you’re going to die in a few decades, why not live your passion?
Cut your expenses, sleep on the floor, eat biscuits, and drink water instead of wine. Do whatever you can do but pursue your dream. In the end, you’ll not regret it.