“Are you paralyzed with fear? That’s a good sign. Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what we have to do. Remember one rule of thumb: the more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it.”― Steven Pressfield, The War of Art: Winning the Inner Creative Battle
It feels like I settle down on my chair and open my laptop to do the work. To be true to you, my friend, it’s not as fancy as it looks.
Before taking a trade or writing a post, I feel what you feel when you’re in danger, and there is no escape. Today is the last day of my life. There is no hope of surviving the next day.
It doesn’t feel good.
Yesterday was good, but today it’s a new challenge, and who the hell I’m in the race of these well-qualified professionals?
It feels like a white belt will have combat with a black belt with no mercy or a lamb in from the tiger asking for mercy.
Pathetic, I feel.
The game will be over in a few minutes, and I’ll be sitting there with shame and guilt in my eyes.
I had to appear again the next day to feel the abuse, criticism, and insult. No one outside will say anything to me, but I knew that resistance would rape me again if I didn’t stand out for myself. It’s inside me as a force of self-destruction, and I can feel it right now here at this moment.
So, what shall I do except believe a quote I read somewhere.
“The only way to get rid of the fear of doing something is to go out and do it.”― Susan Jeffers, Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway